Day 26- OCD: Breaking Out of the Isolation
8:56 AM
I have always been nervous and uncomfortable
speaking up and reaching out to others. Going through school, jobs and life, I
have often experienced myself as quiet, shy, and holding myself back from fully
participating. Even on more intimate, personal levels, I find the fears and
resistances towards reaching out are still existent within me. It is
discouraging and saddening when one is too afraid to take the leap and initiate
an interaction, because that’s when we start missing out on something that
could have been; we are missing out on exploring who we are, and are throwing
away our capacity as creators, never getting the chance to see what we had the
potential to create as ourselves, or the journey we could have walked. In this,we are, in a way, accepting and allowing a diminished version of reality, compared to one that we so easily could have enjoyed.
As time passes and we grow farther from the
cradle and closer to the grave, life starts taking on a new seriousness and
intensity. This cold, hard reality can lead to asking oneself some pretty
substantial questions; Is being held back by fears worth not fully living? Am I
prepared to look back on it all, and among all the ups and downs and
experiences, feel an underlying theme of regret? Am I not brave enough to live
as an equal to others and all that is Here? Will I accept and allow my own
self-judgment lead me to live a life of unworthiness?
When we limit ourselves with fears, we are
missing out on so much everything life has to offer. If we need support, but
are too scared to open up and ask, we are condemning ourselves to isolation and
solitude. What is this veil of shyness/timidity/fear really hiding? What is the
value and definition we’ve placed on ourselves that is making us feel too
scared to reach out to others, or to participate freely in a social interaction?
In my next blog, I will explore this point for
myself by using self-forgiveness; forgiving myself unconditionally for the
hidden fears, values and self-definitions that I held about myself.
If you would like to teach yourself how to find the answer to yourself within yourself, check out DIP Lite, a free online course. I have found this course amazingly supportive, teaching discernment when it comes to what we accept and allow to go on in our minds, and how to direct ourselves to where we want it to be. Did I mention it's free? Give it a try cause there is nothing to lose, and join in the walk to freedom.
If you would like to teach yourself how to find the answer to yourself within yourself, check out DIP Lite, a free online course. I have found this course amazingly supportive, teaching discernment when it comes to what we accept and allow to go on in our minds, and how to direct ourselves to where we want it to be. Did I mention it's free? Give it a try cause there is nothing to lose, and join in the walk to freedom.
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